Monday, July 30, 2007

Best schmest. Leave me alone.

You know what's nice? Happy people.

Oh no...wait, sorry...

NO IT'S NOT.

Carl: "So aren't you excited to be going back to school?!" *grin grin grin*
Me: "I don't really care one way or the other."
Carl: " What? Well, my kids are just so excited to go back. They can't wait. Oh, boy, college is just the best years of your life!" *grin grin grin*

I can't even make you understand how sick I am of hearing that college is the "best years of your life."
So far, it's been the hardest years of my life, and possibly the worst. I wouldn't change anything that's happened or anything I've gone through, but I am sick of feeling like there's something wrong with me for not enjoying college as much as I'm "supposed" to.

And yeah, I know, I don't need to be worrying about what anyone *thinks* I should do, but it's tiring to constantly hear the same thing over and over. And I've stopped disagreeing because most people won't be dissuaded. They enjoyed their college years so, clearly, CLEARLY, you must be as well.

People don't want to hear that you're not happy, people don't want to hear that you don't like your school and people don't want to hear "I have no idea what I want to do" because what people want to hear is "Oh golly, college sure is swell. I love my school and I'm going to be a Journalism major and I know exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life."

I'm not writing this post for validation of my feelings. I don't need any "VIVA unhappiness!" sentiments. I've already come to terms with the fact that people are going to ask me questions I don't want to answer, and when I answer honestly, they're not going to want to hear it. I really didn't need to write this post, huh? Go ahead and ignore it. Oh wait, you alread got this far, suckaaaaah.

4 comments:

Aleen said...

thank you

Rachel Attarian said...

I officially love you. Even more than before.

Lesley said...

I love you!! Thank you for entertaining me with your ideas and thoughts... without you I would forget that there are real people in this world... :)

Anonymous said...

i think people say it because college is the doorstep to an "adult" life. those 4 years are the last years of your life where you dont have to have a "real job" and where you dont have bills and responsibilities. right now is the best time of my life (but thats a long story) and i just thought college was rad because i could sleep in and have fun. then i grew up and had to become a grown up. love you. and your heart. -heidi